I do not have any trouble breathing tonight. Perhaps the crowd has found someplace else to pass the time. How was I to know? I don't care much though. I'm too busy enjoying the cold gush of wind brought about by occasional customers who sometimes hold the door open for too long. Winter nights are…
Dear Other Self Movie, Cultural Baggage and Bold Decisions
Dear Other Self is a Philippine movie released last 2017 under Star Cinema. It is led by Jodi Sta. Maria—an avid traveler. Jodi is a reflection of a lot of other Filipinos out there who's dying to leave everything behind and travel the world but is held down by responsibilities at home. She's the…
empty nobodies.
so people expect us to be ourselves but who are we really but a bunch of empty nobodies crying our way out from our mommy’s wombs as if we knew by then what awaited us. sure, we had parents, maybe siblings, family history and even a name perhaps yet we came out literally empty inside…
An open letter to my younger sister who can’t decide if she should pursue Medicine
I wish I can tell you a plain "You should!" or "You shouldn't!". Although you must know above anyone else I know that the worst possible way to help somebody is to tell them what to do. So I won't. Still, I'm supposedly the bigger sister here which often means bigger wisdom—though it probably doesn't…
Slumdog Millionaire and why some things are better left in the past
I can't remember exactly how old I was when I first watched the movie Slumdog Millionaire. It was released on 2008 but I don't think we already have a DVD player at that time so I must've been twenty or so. Although I can never forget the feeling. Isn't it a beautiful thing that what…
a long bath.
i want to cry. for all the things that went wrong and more so for all the things that went right. i thought i know myself but i can't remember when's the last time i woke up without thinking where am i and what am i doing there. i pretend i'm not looking to be…
Date A Girl Who’s Lost
Date a girl who's lost and watch her drift away in her world while you talk mid-sentence. Observe how her gaze changes from concentration to wonder and maybe, just a bit of wistfulness. Or a lot. Listen to her as she mumbles about all the foods she wants to try, all the places she wants…
Movie: Dead Poets Society
So I watched Dead Poets Society last Saturday night—for the nth time. And Neil choosing death over a predestined life still makes me weep. And Charlie telling Todd about Neil's death still makes me weep. And Todd's outburst on the snowy field still makes me weep. And most of the class standing up for Keating…
maybe not.
Maybe I should've ordered the family set and sat at the bigger table trying to eat everything knowing I can't. I wonder how long it will take til my stomach churns. Maybe I should've rented a bump car for myself at the park. Everybody will stare but who cares. The kids looked happy. Maybe I…
the other side.
They say it's harder to stay than to run away. To face reality than to escape. They believe going away doesn't take as much courage as keeping still and fixing things. I wonder if they have ever tried it before they concluded such twisted thought. I wonder if they have walked the streets of a…
walking life barefoot. 